Personal archive

Health, relationships and more besides. Read about my battles with PMDD, my mental health, surviving both childhood sexual abuse and a 12 years of emotional abuse as well personal projects and challenges, and anything vaguely Jem-related.

If I inherited a million pounds

In Lifestyle, Personal

I don’t play the lottery (aka “tax on the poor”), scratchcards, or indeed gamble at all. It’s not that I have any ethical/moral concerns about gambling but rather I just seem to have awful luck. I’ve never won anything in my life, and regularly bemoan… read full entry →

Not Giving Up (The Reality of Losing Weight)

In Fitness, Personal

A month ago I posted about my muddy run in London and noticing some bodily side effects: it all adds up to a shit ton of alcohol, far too much junk food and not enough veg which ultimately means I have a lingering cold [..]… read full entry →

Protected: Admitting I have a problem

In Personal

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One month since…

In Personal

I jumped back into freelance I had this rough plan in my head: I was going to ease myself into freelance, taking the first two weeks gently to try and get rid of some of the symptoms of burnout that I’d been experiencing previously, and… read full entry →

Barcelona, boobs and a bigass church

In Personal

I ticked another item off my 30 things before thirty list last week when I flew to Barcelona with Gaz for the mystery holiday he’d booked us. He did quite well actually, I didn’t find out where we were going until check in when ‘unfortunately’… read full entry →

In defence of spur of the moment decisions

In Personal

I think often as a grown up, being able to spend time thinking about and rationalising decisions before acting them out is considered a desirable trait. Sleep on it, we’re told. Write pro/con lists and weigh up consequences. I say bollocks to that. Last year… read full entry →

Weekend in a Tent

In Personal

Gaz and I celebrated our first anniversary by spending the bank holiday weekend in a tent. I have to admit I was a little anxious about the whole thing. It’s May, and the weather is still changeable, so I expected a weekend of rain. Gaz… read full entry →

Mortgage Free: Bumps in the Road

In Budgeting, Personal

One of the biggest barriers to me being mortgage free in 5 years is a bad habit I don’t tend to talk about too often: I’m a comfort spender. If I’m stressed, I spend money on anything and everything. The ironic thing about this unnecessary… read full entry →

Flippity Flop

In Personal, Work

Keeping with the “posts I didn’t think I’d write” theme, I have some slightly less traumatic but otherwise Important Life Stuff news. Having earlier this week spent the Nth (I’ve lost count) night waking up — tossing and turning — stressing about work, I decided… read full entry →

(TW) I have no idea how to title this post

In Personal

Trigger warning: sexual abuse I’ve started — and deleted — this post so many times over the past few years or so. In fact, I’m writing it now, not knowing if I will get to the end before I change my mind and delete it… read full entry →

Back on track: fitness, fatness and binging

In Fitness, Personal

So having confessed a couple of weeks ago that I’ve been slacking off on my workouts and binging on shit food, I decided that I was absolutely going to knuckle down, STFU and get on with not-being-a-fatty again. There’s no point in me whining about… read full entry →

Fun Days and Holidays

In Parenting, Personal

This post was originally written a week ago, so the first paragraph probably doesn’t make much sense now… Having told you all back in March that I’m blogging wrong, I then went on to not blog at all, which is probably as wrong as you… read full entry →