Personal archive

Read about my battles with Pre-Menstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD), my mental health, surviving both childhood sexual abuse and a 12 year relationship plagued with emotional abuse, as well personal projects / challenges, and anything vaguely Jem-related.

Manifesto for Life

I will not settle for just-about-surviving in bad relationships for the sake of others. I will not model ‘making do’ to my children. I will climb a mountain and more if it means achieving my goals. I will not let other’s opinions stop me from being happy. I will allow myself to be vulnerable around… read more →


Continuing my ‘year of me’, June is all about accountability. I am offering myself out there for you guys to hold me accountable. I am finally getting off my arse, stepping up to the plate and saying “this is who I am and I want to change”. What the fuck am I talking about? My… read more →

Like a room without a roof

Because I’m happy Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof Because I’m happy Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth Because I’m happy Clap along if you know what happiness is to you Because I’m happy Clap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna do —… read more →

For Sale: One Kidney

My housing status is basically an unstable mess. I have no idea where I will be living in 6 months time, and part of that is because Karl and I own an equal share of this house and one of us will have to buy the other out at some point (or sell up and… read more →

I have no idea what I’m doing

I have felt pretty good for the past week or so. I ended my 12 year relationship – it was the right thing to do. I started to take control of my finances and things – an annoying necessity. I started to plan how I would move forward – so everything is set in concrete… read more →

I’m not allowed to feel

It’s only been 3 days and apparently the role of a single person — single parent — is to have one’s feelings dictated: I’m not allowed to feel what I want to feel. Oh you must be so sad I know you’re just hanging on for the kids Don’t worry, you’ll get back together when… read more →

I am a single mum

I am a single mum. I am a single mum. I am a single mum. If I say it enough times, the reality might sink in. Karl and I split on Monday. I have to admit it seems pretty radical to make my May ‘me’ thing the end of our 12+ year relationship (I was… read more →

The Year of Me

I’m declaring 2014 to be the year of me. It started in January, when I chopped my hair off again because that’s how I like it. It continued into February when I put my kids back into nursery every day and I took on a new role as senior developer (or old role, depending on… read more →

In which I ramble

It’s just taken me 3 attempts to log in to my blog, which pretty much sums up my efforts so far with regards to point 6 of my yearly goals. Must try harder. The thing is I can’t even remember the last time I actually had time to sit down and blog. Even my last… read more →