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Read about my battles with Pre-Menstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD), my mental health, surviving both childhood sexual abuse and a 12 year relationship plagued with emotional abuse, as well personal projects / challenges, and anything vaguely Jem-related.

Demotivated with weight loss (or lack of, rather)

I’m having a bad day. Personal crap, work crap, crap crap. On top of all this, I’m feeling really demotivated and disillusioned with the whole fitness / weight loss thing. Having talked about my “problem” and my fitness/weight loss goals at the beginning of the month, I have buckled down with my eating and increased… read more →

driving celica gt-four at blyton park

Firsts

I have had a most amazing week, and it occurs to me this morning that it has been a week full of “firsts”: First holiday on my own First time “glamping” First time I drove on a proper motorway (3 lanes) First time I drove to a destination on unfamiliar roads without using satnav First… read more →

Grown-up adventure

So I’m off on a proper grown-up adventure tomorrow. Camping — “glamping”, rather, with Little Oasis Pandy — ON MY OWN. I’ve never booked a spur of the moment mini break before, let alone one in which I am completely in control of what I do, where I go, what time I get out of… read more →

Update in few words

Still running. (I’ve entered a 10k race) Still 30-day-shredding. (Apart from one missed Monday) Still sober. (Not as hard as I thought) Still happy. (♥)… read more →

white wine in a glass

Dry for July

I’ve decided: I’m giving up alcohol for July. I’m going dry for July. I’d like to claim the nifty title of this challenge as my own genius creativity, but the reality is I nicked it off Katy. I wasn’t even going to join her in her goal at first (in fact I’m not even sure… read more →

I feel like a fraud

I was reading Alice’s great post on the tiredness of a single mum yesterday and found myself nodding vigorously in agreement. Because I thought I knew tired when I had my first newborn; I thought I knew tired when we hit our first growth spurt; I thought I knew tired when I had a committed… read more →

Accountability: You Guys Suck

It’s a good job I’m fairly motivated because you guys suck at this ‘keeping me accountable’ lark. One nag on twitter last week and then nothing this week. Useless, bloody useless. ;) However, I did get up and off my arse on Monday: I finally took my copy of 30 day shred out of its… read more →

30 things before I’m thirty: so far

As I said yesterday, because of the big time difference between me starting my “30 things before I’m thirty” list and actually publishing it, I’ve already completed two of the things on my list… albeit with some confusion and/or not quite in the way I’d originally anticipated! First to be completed: Go on a proper… read more →

30 things before I’m thirty

I started writing this “30 things before I’m thirty” list in a draft in January, but what with one thing and another never got round to finishing it. Here’s my original list… Learn to swim Actually complete a parkrun (that should probably be “actually take part in a parkrun”) Volunteer … somewhere, anywhere, just volunteer!… read more →