I’ve had something to blog about several days in a row since new year, and each time I’ve decided against publishing because at the back of my head is a little voice telling me “some readers won’t like that”. And so I delete my entry and go back to hiding in a private blog.
I made a promise to several readers back when I announced my pregnancy that I wouldn’t turn this into a “mommy” blog and so I haven’t, but in keeping my promise I have violated the very reason for my blogging in the first place! I cultivated a reputation based on the fact that I am not afraid to speak my mind, and yet what is deleting entries if not scared to admit that, actually, I want to blog about being a mummy?
As I said at the beginning of the year, I have changed. If that makes me a hypocrite, or betrays a silly promise then so be it… better that than betraying myself.