Sometimes I wonder if I take on too much because I am paranoid about letting people down (irrelevant of who they are). I can’t decide if this is an ego thing (i.e. must prove I can do this, must show my skill) or an inbuilt desire to prove that I am actually a nice, helpful person and that my lack of tact and bitchiness is not always intentional.

Maybe I am just too much of a perfectionist and can’t stand the idea of someone else doing it ‘not quite right’… (now that is an ego thing.)

That slightly ‘deep’ ramble is inspired by the fact that — despite being surrounded by work scripts/projects, other people’s scripts, q*bee projects, my scripts (old and new), reviews etc — I am still considering re-writing my weblog/CMS in the next couple of months. It is almost two years old, after all. The poor girl is barely holding up under the strain caused by the massive amount of love, appreciation and comments I get ;)

I think I like being under pressure.

I am swamped at work and “at home” (i.e. personal ‘net interests) right now, finding it very hard to catch up after my week away due to illness recently. As such, mails are going unanswered and I just don’t feel like rushing anything to get back on top of things. I will get back to… read full entry »