Just be chill about it

In Personal

Gaz asked me one Saturday a few weeks back — as I ordered a vodka cocktail — whether or not I’d given up on the ‘not drinking’ thing. A fair question, given the ‘ordering a cocktail’ thing. Sobriety was going really, really well. I had… read full entry →

Orange & Lemonade Pt 2: 5 weeks

In Personal

It’s now been about 5 weeks since I decided to stop drinking for good. I am sleeping better. Aside from a couple of weeks of intense drinking-frenzy dreams where I got completely smashed off my face (in the dream, that is) I have slept solidly… read full entry →

Your anxiety is not my anxiety

In Personal

I started writing this post a couple of months ago, but decided not to finish it because it came off too ‘special snowflake’ or a dig on other types of anxiety (which it definitely isn’t) but my good friend Aisling posted recently about atypical depression… read full entry →

Identity

In PMDD

I was having a conversation with Gaz in bed the other day. You know the type: snuggled up in bed, pillow talk, vulnerabilities exposed, all that shit. And this deep, meaningful conversation — the sort of conversation I can only truthfully have with my fucking… read full entry →

Crack on

In PMDD

I started writing a blog post about anxiety yesterday, and perhaps ironically my own was so strong that I ended up deleting it. I spent most of yesterday hiding: hiding from the world, hiding from myself. I was supposed to be going for a run…… read full entry →

An Insight into PMDD aka Today I’m Crazy Because…

In PMDD

Today is day 12 of my cycle, so over the next few days I will be at peak hormone anxiety-ridden mess. To put this into perspective, this is how it’s affected my day so far: I turned down the opportunity to work for a local… read full entry →

Monthly post to confirm not-deadness (and other exciting news)

In Personal

Not sure I made that blog title long enough? Anyway.. hi, here I am. Not dead. Which you probably already know because you all follow me on social media. Don’t you? Things have been a bit hectic lately. Last time I spoke to you I… read full entry →

Giving in

In Personal, PMDD

I went to the doctors a couple of weeks ago and got my referral for sterilisation as mentioned back in January. The doctor tried to give me non-permanent long term contraceptive options but was obviously content that I had done my research and knew what… read full entry →

The things I’m not saying out loud

In Personal

I am currently sat in bed crying into my second glass of wine. Wine that I shouldn’t be drinking because I’m the sole carer for my children tonight, as with most nights, and if they wake up in the middle of the night with some… read full entry →

In which I nearly have a breakdown

In Personal

Things have been a little weird recently here at Chez Jem. When I posted Enter title here I was struggling more than I let on. I was struggling to see the point of anything. I didn’t want to get out of bed in the morning,… read full entry →