2018: The Year It All Clicked
I don’t think it’s possible to have a perfect year. 12 months / 52 weeks / 365 days: all too big a time-span to guarantee…
I chose to drink. It was rubbish.
(I originally posted this on reddit, but want it recording here as part of my journey.) I had a drink on Saturday night. I made…
The state of dry drinking in the UK
As I rapidly approach my 5th month sober I can’t help but reflect on the state of dry (sober) drinking in the UK. I have…
My PMDD is Under Control
For the uninitiated and new readers amongst you, PMDD is an extreme version of PMS/PMT. It can cause cyclical feelings of anxiety, depression, anger and…
Just be chill about it
Gaz asked me one Saturday a few weeks back — as I ordered a vodka cocktail — whether or not I’d given up on the…
Death, Depression and Drink
Content warning: suicide, mental health, addiction On Wednesday I sat down and mentally compiled a tribute to my brother, whilst assembling an IKEA table. There’s…
Is this it?
I have spent a large part of the past few weeks jumping from one ‘chaos moment’ to another (as per usual) and I was sat…
Orange & Lemonade Pt 2: 5 weeks
It’s now been about 5 weeks since I decided to stop drinking for good. I am sleeping better. Aside from a couple of weeks of…
Orange & Lemonade
Yesterday lunch time I went out with Gaz’s team from work for an unexpected light lunch. It’s the kind of situation where I’d usually indulge…
First the plans, now the goals
Off the back of my post about plans for 2017, and following a conversation with my darling husband last night during which I got defensive…
AMA: What gets you out of a funk?
I was going to answer my AMA questions in the order they were asked, but having not long come out of a pretty rough few…
Cold Turkey
I had a massive panic attack on Saturday night. Partly fueled by a few too many vodkas, and partly by confronting a ‘demon’ that I’ve…