Bit of a blogging hiatus here recently, although not intentionally. I’ve been struggling with my mood a lot recently, which I had mostly attributed to PMS but had also considered the possibility of a reaction to the reintroduction of alcohol after going dry for July. It all came to a head on Saturday night when I broke down sobbing on Gaz for the second time in a week and I realised something was amiss.
Having got to the point where I am struggling to motivate myself to drag my lazy arse out of bed in the morning, I saw my counsellor again yesterday. Turns out that my negative mood is probably neither PMS nor alcohol, but a little more complicated than that. As usual, talking things through and having them repeated back at me for an amazing amount of money that I can’t really afford gave me my moment of clarity and I know for definite what I need to do now. More on that at a later date, though.
In other (more cheerful) news, I have ticked off another item from my 30 things before I’m thirty list, having completed my first parkrun on Saturday 9th August with a time of exactly 29 minutes. I am really, really pleased that I managed a sub-30 minute 5k, although credit goes to Rachael who basically abused me around the course to keep me going ;) Now just to compete in a race to cross the other running goal off my list…
14 Aug at 2:45 am
A sub-30-minute 5K? Wow!!! Well done! (My fastest time was still about 45 minutes so I am very impressed.)
Also, I am so tempted to try therapy for a myriad of reasons but I haven’t managed to get it together and call. I’m glad it’s helping you!
14 Aug at 9:28 am
I have to say, seeing my counsellor is probably the 2nd best thing I’ve ever done. :)
14 Aug at 1:12 pm
Sorry to hear that things are a bit hard for you at the moment, I hope that you will be able to understand what is going on and figure out ways to solve it. I struggled with some issues of mental illness for a long time, and spend many years ignoring them or thinking I was just being stupid. Not saying that your issue might be mental illness. xD
That is really cool that you ticked another item off the list. :3
14 Aug at 1:58 pm
I think I’ve figured out what’s causing my problems – now just to fix them… :)